So much fear
surrounds my heart
as I seem to be stumbling
through the wilderness
more than ever.
So many possibilities opening up
but everything so blank
at the same time.
The emptiness is exciting
as it is terrifying.
I know it’ll be scary,
I know it’ll be hard,
but I also know in so many ways
it can’t be half as hard
as what I’m leaving behind.
I don’t know where I’m going,
I don’t know what I’m doing,
but I’m just grateful
to finally be able
to look forward.
Living.
Not just surviving.
And while living is so damn hard.
I will do it.
I will do it for the person I left behind.
I will do it for myself because I have to.
Those years weren’t for nothing.
They were for this.
And now I have to keep going.
Where?
I don’t know.
Will it be scary?
It’ll be terrifying.
But I have to do it.
I have to know where this road goes
and the never-ending journey
I’m being taken on.
I have to keep moving forward,
for me.
Despite the fear,
I have to keep going.
🛤💭

(Originally posted on @mindfullyevie Instagram and Facebook)