What a difference a year makes, from functioning at 5% to 30% today šš
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This time last year I was completely bedbound, and I didnāt end up leaving my bedroom for 365 days.
During that time, every meal and need was bought to me.
I didnāt make a single cup of tea myself.
Showers were a thing of the past.
My parents washed my hair for me once a month over the bath.
I lived in constant darkness and silence. š“
I saw my best friend once in that year for 15 minutes in bed.
I had a migraine every day.
I wore sun glasses 24/7.
All I did was literally just lay in the dark and rest all day.
The photo on the left isnāt even an accurate photo as we opened the curtains and I took off my sunnies very briefly to take the picture!
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Today, Iām going downstairs EVERY DAY and staying down there for the whole day.
Iām getting my own food, my own cups of tea. āļø
Iām able to sit at a table and write.
I can shower every third day, and wash my own hair fortnightly (stool in the shower to help).
Iām baking birthday cakes for people. š
Iāve seen all five of my best friends for the first time in over three years (they came to my garden)!
Iām FaceTiming and chatting to people a few times a week.
Iāve gone on a handful of small adventures, like the one above, driving to local open spaces, sitting down and people watching. š
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I never, ever thought Iād post this.
I never thought I would finally be the one telling others Iāve improved.
I knew it would happen one day, but I never quite expected it to happen so quickly.
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HOPE is real.
RECOVERY is real.
Donāt ever give up.
I know I have a long way to go, but right now Iām just going to be appreciating how insanely far I have come this year.
30% may still not sound like a lot to some people, but others will know it is everything to me.
This. Is. Happening.
After 7 long years of decline, I am finally healing.
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(Originally posted on @mindfullyevie Instagram and Facebook)