As I’ve been stuck here in this house, I’m aware everyone else has been moving on. Moving on to new friends, new partners, new cities, new jobs. They’ve started and finished university degrees. They’ve begun and ended relationships. They’ve travelled to foreign countries and settled in new homes. They’ve got new friendship groups and new jobs.
I know that when I leave this house, it’ll be a shock for me to realise just how much everything has changed and how everyone I once knew has moved on and grown up.
But in so many ways, I too have moved on. I’ve moved on from wasting my energy on things that hold little value to me. I’ve moved on from focusing on others to concentrating on myself. I’ve moved on from searching for romantic love to finding peace and happiness in my own company. I’ve moved on from worrying about what others think to doing what always feels best for me. I’ve moved on from seeking approval and achievements to seeking growth and inner peace.
I am not the same person who walked into this house for the last time all those years ago. I have moved on and grown up too, I just can’t put my kind of growth on paper, and I’m so grateful for that. Because this is my path – it has given me so much more than it has ever taken away, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
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