I can’t quite believe I’m posting this.
Maybe it’s because I can’t believe it’s actually happening.
Maybe it’s because my mental state and physical state couldn’t be more different.
Or maybe it’s because I don’t like the idea of scaring others who suffer with M.E and/or Lyme that they might end up where I am.
But this month marks 6 months of being bedbound due to M.E and as I now know, chronic Lyme’s disease.
I honestly can’t believe how quickly the time has melted away, and yet it seems like a lifetime ago I was able to wake up and go straight downstairs.
I don’t know why this has happened and I don’t know why no matter what I do I can’t seem to get better.
But I do know this:
⁃ This is not forever.
⁃ Even when everything still seems to go wrong, don’t ever stop doing right.
⁃ Anger and blame hold on purpose. They are simply obstacles blocking you from peace and happiness.
⁃ You can experience dozens of different emotions in one day. Embrace them all with compassion and the negatives ones will pass soon enough.
⁃ There will come a day sometime in the future when I look back on this period of time and wonder how on earth I got through it the way I have.
Although my situation sounds terrible, I hold so much peace and happiness here in these four walls; the bad moments are very far and few, and I want to make sure I always remember that. ❤️