One of the biggest things mindfulness has taught me is to accept the things which I cannot control.
I cannot control the fatigue that comes with M.E. – there is no way to overcome it.
It is always there; it’s there when I wake up, it’s there when I go to sleep.
I carry it everywhere with me like a rucksack which I can never take off.
Instead of resisting my fatigue, I learnt to embrace the weight of it with open arms.
I came to accept that the constant fatigue is a part of my life right now, while at the same time remembering it won’t always be like this.
Ironically, once I started to accept this, it was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
Acceptance meant I didn’t allow the fatigue to dominate my thoughts anymore; although my fatigue is always there, it doesn’t mean I always have to dwell on it
Acceptance allowed me to make peace with my situation and it enabled me to move on so I could enjoy the little things in life again.
It has been a long journey to achieve this acceptance, and at times it still tests me, but through it I have been able to find peace and contentment in my life despite the never-ending fatigue